Lewis says he now knows there are many good things he can do in life, and he’d like to become an addiction counselor. But he still thinks of heroin almost daily.
“They call it ‘playing the tape’ ... which is about thinking about the negative effects, what it’s done to you and where it’s going to lead — to three different places: jails, institutions and death,” he says. “What I always say is I’ve been to jails, I’ve been to institutions and the only place left for me is dying.”
Being an addict, he adds, is “definitely in the past. I’d like to keep it there. I’m working on keeping it there. ... I never know what the next day will bring. I may feel depressed or something may happen that makes me feel like I want to use ... but I don’t think I’ll be having the urge anytime soon. I hope.”